Santana Taylor, Significant Event

When I was growing up, my mother and my father always seemed to be there for me through thick and thin. No matter the circumstances and no matter the cost, I was the baby and I was always more than taken care of. Loved I was. Little did I know, that my parents were going through their own trials and tribulations of a lifetime. When I was 6 years old, my parents  got a divorce. I was confused and sad because I felt like everything was perfect. I didn’t see the need of their departure from each other. My heart, love and soul was ripped from my chest. Nothing would ever be the same. I no longer had the perfect life and I wasn't catered too any longer.

I felt like their separation from each other was always my fault. That thought stayed in the back of my mind for a long time. Was I the cost of their divorce? I mean, what other reason would they leave each other? Regardless of what I thought, they were no longer together and no longer had the respect and love to be with each other. So that left me with the choosing of which party I was to stay with for the rest of my premature years. Of course I picked my mother. She was nurturing and loving like mothers are supposed to be. I felt cared for and loved by her.

I grew up with my mother for the remainder of my years to date. I rarely see my father. He is the type to come and go as he pleases and shows up on his own time; basically whenever it is convenient for him. I do miss him dearly and the mother and daughter bond we shared but what exactly can I do to reach out to him more? My parents not being together has affected me tremendously. I seem to be missing a part of myself, that I know I could have if my father was around. My decisions and life choices are affected my parents choice. I stay to myself and try not to get into certain relationships. From their choices, it has affected me as a person and the future choices I will make later on in my life. My eyes are now more open to life now and I make decisions based on those actions that my parents made.